- Don't Give It Up -
You know , I always have something objective to say about , well , anything . Mostly, about love. You know , no matter how many times I say it hurts, it always finds a way to make me love it again. Yes, I'm talking about Greg. He's lied, and hurt me a lot. Yet , I can't let him go. No matter how much I feel like I want to , I can't. Because I need him. You may or may not believe me, since I am 16, and we have only been together for 6 and a half months, but I do need him. Reason? He makes me feel like I'm on cloud nine. He's the one I want to fight with, make mistakes with, live with, ans just be with. Because when you find something this strong, don't be stubborn and fight it off, because you may not believe its true. That nothing can be this , real. But it can . Not everything will be false. Not every feeling is fake. Not every move is wrong. So take hold of the situation. And for all those girls who've got a great man, get them on the phone and let them know how much they mean to you. Because in the end , everyone needs to hear how special they are to someone .
- Progression -
some say love is pure , some say love is kind,
some say love forgives and is blind.
some say love only happens once , that hurt is worth the while ,
but what happens when it leaves you in denial ?
some say love forgives and is blind.
some say love only happens once , that hurt is worth the while ,
but what happens when it leaves you in denial ?
You know , its never occurred to me why people say love can be the worst pain, and how you do crazy stupid things when your in love. As far as I knew , i didn't know a thing . I've never felt that pain , and I've never done anything out of the ordinary ( you know , my normal abnormality , that is (; ) . However, i believe it was because I have never really felt LOVE . Until now .
GTB , the cause.
Motive? Love .
COD ? love overdrive.
TOD? few weeks ago.
Motive? Love .
COD ? love overdrive.
TOD? few weeks ago.
GTB = boyfriend
COD = cause of death ( or devestation, since I'm breathing , )
TOD = time of death ( you know " " )
Point to the criminal lingo ? Ive felt the pain. Yep, me. Turns out i was totaly oblivious to what was going on. Turns out its okay to go to another girl and say you love them and you wanna do things with them ( you know ... ) . For a while I thought it was my fault , that I wasn't good enough, so he had to do that . But i realized , I'm not the one to blame . He is . She is . I had put my heart and soul into a relationship that was falling apart at the seams . But what can you do ? How many sorry's does it take to mend a broken heart; how many excuses does it take to make it all okay; how many lies does it take to push you off the edge? The answer ? I have no clue . I dont know how many sorry's it will take to put the pieces back together. I dont know how many excuses I'm willing to listen to. I dont know if I can take another lie, since im already hung out over the edge. What I need is for he to obtain a rope. A rope to wich he will be able to hoist me back over and out away form that edge. I am convinced he can do it , I'm just not quite sure how or when. For now, you ask , I am tightly holding on to the ledge. I mean after all , you get a pretty good view. As I gaze upon the scenery, I see my dreams, my fears, my hopes, my dreams, my everything. I got a clearer view of what I need. And that is happyness. I have found it, truely. Yet , it needs improvement. But I am strong. I know I can make it and hold on a while longer. I believe in who I am and what I do. Therefor, I know I will be happy with the people who surround me . He will change, progression is beginning. The heart is mending. The truth is revealing. The love is warming. The world isn't ending.
COD = cause of death ( or devestation, since I'm breathing , )
TOD = time of death ( you know " " )
Point to the criminal lingo ? Ive felt the pain. Yep, me. Turns out i was totaly oblivious to what was going on. Turns out its okay to go to another girl and say you love them and you wanna do things with them ( you know ... ) . For a while I thought it was my fault , that I wasn't good enough, so he had to do that . But i realized , I'm not the one to blame . He is . She is . I had put my heart and soul into a relationship that was falling apart at the seams . But what can you do ? How many sorry's does it take to mend a broken heart; how many excuses does it take to make it all okay; how many lies does it take to push you off the edge? The answer ? I have no clue . I dont know how many sorry's it will take to put the pieces back together. I dont know how many excuses I'm willing to listen to. I dont know if I can take another lie, since im already hung out over the edge. What I need is for he to obtain a rope. A rope to wich he will be able to hoist me back over and out away form that edge. I am convinced he can do it , I'm just not quite sure how or when. For now, you ask , I am tightly holding on to the ledge. I mean after all , you get a pretty good view. As I gaze upon the scenery, I see my dreams, my fears, my hopes, my dreams, my everything. I got a clearer view of what I need. And that is happyness. I have found it, truely. Yet , it needs improvement. But I am strong. I know I can make it and hold on a while longer. I believe in who I am and what I do. Therefor, I know I will be happy with the people who surround me . He will change, progression is beginning. The heart is mending. The truth is revealing. The love is warming. The world isn't ending.
Have you ever felt the silence?
This silence occurs when you feel alone , helpless, lost. When your sitting in the car, and all you hear are the window wipers and the soft music of the radio in the background. Yet, the question still remains, how do you get out of it ? Answer ? Well, i don't have it. YOU do . You are the only one who knows why you have ended up in such a situation, which means YOU know how to get out . No one can give you the right answer, therefor its time to truly look inside of you and find out how to gain true happiness. Fulfill your dreams and live the life you want . Because after all , you write your book, not anyone else .
24 story love affair *
As I mentioned in my previous post, i am in a relationship with Gregory. He is a very sweet guy who knows how to make me laugh, but also be serious in the proper times. He is not affraid to show his feelings and who he truely is. He has allowed me to open up to him and he has done the same for me. Although the distance, we still manage to send the oh so often IM and the daily late night phone calls. But latley , something has been bothering me...
Distance. It always seems to be a problem, no matter how hard we try. The distance truely does hurt. Every single second I am not with hiim, i feel empty, alone. I hate this feeling because sometimes I feel like I NEED him around. I used to think he was my "anti-drug", but now i am kinda thinking he IS that "drug".
Anyways, as far as the whole "love" thing goes, I'm putting my thoughts on that on hold. Time will tell if this is all ment to be. If yes, then its goiing to be an awesome journey. If no, well i'll cross that bridge when I get to it.
Well im off to bed, good night ! :D
Distance. It always seems to be a problem, no matter how hard we try. The distance truely does hurt. Every single second I am not with hiim, i feel empty, alone. I hate this feeling because sometimes I feel like I NEED him around. I used to think he was my "anti-drug", but now i am kinda thinking he IS that "drug".
Anyways, as far as the whole "love" thing goes, I'm putting my thoughts on that on hold. Time will tell if this is all ment to be. If yes, then its goiing to be an awesome journey. If no, well i'll cross that bridge when I get to it.
Well im off to bed, good night ! :D
Updating *
Hey ya'll,
UPDATES !
I think its a good time to update on everything. First off, Aaron and I arent together. Things werent working. But , we are good friends. We are pretty close.
I am with Gregory though. Saturday with make 1 month, exact. There are some petite problems, however. See, he lives in Boiestown, wich is about 90 minutes drive from my house. And so, its pretty hard to see each other. His father said that he would not drive him to Freddy, and my parents found it would be in there best interest to not drive me to Boiestown. Wich at this point, will lead me to the next post.
To continue, that pretty much sums up the love life. As for the friendship side to what composes my world, I find out who my real friends are. Amber remains my best friend, and Tanner is like my brother. Aaron is a super good friend and I can tell all these 3 just about anything. While there still are some hardships between some of us, we still remains the best of friends and we are just aiming to enjoi our summer. Infact, you all should be doiing that as well.
I'll leave you wishing you the best of the rest of summer. Enjoi every second and make every memory last ! :D
& Break Ups.
Break ups can be one of the worst experiances a person can live through. They cause pain to the heart, it causes some people to break down and just let go. But althought Break Ups are stereotyped as something very bad, it can also be good. Allow me to explain...
When you're with someone, it feels like nothing else matters. Every single time they are a round and they hold you in there arms, it can be the best feeling; a feeling of love and security and acceptence. As the rules go, everything comes to an end eventually. And that brings us to the break up part... When you break up, you can learn alot. After all the tears and the dozens of Ben & Jerrys ice cream cartons on the floor, you learn to accept the fact the relationship is over. You can look back on all the times youve spent with that significant other, and realize what went wrong. Regardless if it was your fault or his/hers, something clearly went wrong. Wich is what brings me to my point; Think about the relationship. Think of the good times and bad and see what was bad. Because in the end, you can improve your knowledge on what type of guy you want.
Small Tip : Second Chances are always good to give, but if you and someone had a very bad break up, no matter how much you love him/her, its not worth the risk to give them a second chance and get hurt. Learn to be sellfish and think about Y-O-U .
Point Blank ; learn to learn from a break up. Believe in yourself and that everything will be okay, because if we never go through breakups, we will never truely find "The One". Good things take time, so throw away that love watch and just sit back, relax, and live your lifee !
When you're with someone, it feels like nothing else matters. Every single time they are a round and they hold you in there arms, it can be the best feeling; a feeling of love and security and acceptence. As the rules go, everything comes to an end eventually. And that brings us to the break up part... When you break up, you can learn alot. After all the tears and the dozens of Ben & Jerrys ice cream cartons on the floor, you learn to accept the fact the relationship is over. You can look back on all the times youve spent with that significant other, and realize what went wrong. Regardless if it was your fault or his/hers, something clearly went wrong. Wich is what brings me to my point; Think about the relationship. Think of the good times and bad and see what was bad. Because in the end, you can improve your knowledge on what type of guy you want.
Small Tip : Second Chances are always good to give, but if you and someone had a very bad break up, no matter how much you love him/her, its not worth the risk to give them a second chance and get hurt. Learn to be sellfish and think about Y-O-U .
Point Blank ; learn to learn from a break up. Believe in yourself and that everything will be okay, because if we never go through breakups, we will never truely find "The One". Good things take time, so throw away that love watch and just sit back, relax, and live your lifee !
Role Modeling.
It really sucks doesnt it ? Being the odlest I mean. Sure, I love being the Big Sister, getting to help out mom with the new baby, and keeping my siblings out of trouble. But, as we all know, theirs alot to live up to.
For example, Mom & Dad expect me to be the best. Best student, best child, best friend. But I cant always be the best. We all have our flaunts. And trust me, I dont let mine hide...
For example, Mom & Dad expect me to be the best. Best student, best child, best friend. But I cant always be the best. We all have our flaunts. And trust me, I dont let mine hide...
School has always been something I love. I love knowing that everyday I get just a lil bit closer to realizing my dreams. That everyday, my knowledge expands in diffrent ways. Yet, I cant seem to achive the marks I want. My parents always seem to bring me down, instead fo telling me "You did your best, and thats all I ask for". Sure, they say that every so often, but then they add "Your best isnt this", or something similar to that.
Point blank, being the role model is hard. But for all the oldest in the familys out there, good luck ! :D
Point blank, being the role model is hard. But for all the oldest in the familys out there, good luck ! :D
--& Freedom.
Freedom is something that ever living person wants. It has become one of the few needs the human race desires the most. Freedom is not only a word, but a reward. It alows you to speek your mind, be who you want to be, and live your life . Freedom is supposed to be the best part of any stage in your life. For example, the first time your parents buy you a bike. It's a privilage, a gift, but also a responsability; freedom. Later on, you obtain the privilage of riding that bike off into the sunset, or atleast the end of the block. Freedom allows you to explore and find out who you are and who you want to be with. It allows you to find love, friendship, and happyness. So basicly, freedom is, everything.
staying up till 4 in the morning*
Hey everyone :) havent blogged in a while.. been hard fiding time, been busy with drama in my social life ;)
*kiss me through the phonee *
Well, let me give ya'll a lil update on the love life.. I am no longer single :) his name is Aaron and I love him so much :) He puts a smile on my face, with the occasional frown.. But then again, who doesnt ? haha. Basicly, hes a very sweet guy, with a kind heart, and a best friend who loves me...
Yeah, you heard it, Aarons best friend Greg likes me. Greg isnt the type of guy to go off and "steal" his best friends girlfriend, so to speak, but I guess im just special. haha. Point blank, is that we got to talking and he turns out to be diffrent. Yeah, yeah, that's what they all say, but he is actually different.
*no Dee, that is not how u spell this! that is not how u do that! Danielle!! you is YOU. AND remember your capitals!!; says Izzy*
Yeah, you heard it, Aarons best friend Greg likes me. Greg isnt the type of guy to go off and "steal" his best friends girlfriend, so to speak, but I guess im just special. haha. Point blank, is that we got to talking and he turns out to be diffrent. Yeah, yeah, that's what they all say, but he is actually different.
*no Dee, that is not how u spell this! that is not how u do that! Danielle!! you is YOU. AND remember your capitals!!; says Izzy*
So, if you all are not a bunch of half wits, then you've noticed that I do indeed have a small thing for Gregory. Yeah, i know. MY BF's BEST FRIEND! But as a wise and youthful women once told me : You can not help who your heart chooses. And I do believe that, with all my heart. However, for now I'm fulfilling my duty as to stay faithfull and loving toward Aaron, as I always have been. We will see how things unfold and just how the cookie crumbles. As for now, I bid you all goodnight leaving you one last piece of advice... : Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game. So, always put your best foot forward and set up for the pitch.
Affraid.
I'm affraid to move on,
affraid to back down,
affraid of what you'll think of me,
years from now.
Keep me in your memory,
if not in your heart.
Cause baby I'm affraid,
to fall apart.
Yess, you've got it. I write songs. Not all the time, just when something importent happends.
affraid to back down,
affraid of what you'll think of me,
years from now.
Keep me in your memory,
if not in your heart.
Cause baby I'm affraid,
to fall apart.
Yess, you've got it. I write songs. Not all the time, just when something importent happends.
I'm in the process of writing this song because yet again, someone I really like is moving away. I really think I must have broken a half dosain mirrors when I was younger, because I could swear im cursed. haha.
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