Did you ever go through something that you felt was so unfair that thier is absolutly nothing that can mend what had been broken? Have you ever been pushed so far down to the ground that you never thought that you could ever find the strenght to get back up? What I mean in simily to these things is bulying.
In a world filled with love and caring, how could anyone ever think about hurting one another?
Another Year Has Past
Another year has past. The school year has just finished and my birthday was just short of 3 days ago. To my surprise, it wasn't at all horrible. Despite the fact that I had to babysit (in the meanwhile my mother was working), I got to celebrate my now 16year on this planet ( And they said 2000 would be then end of the world, pshh!) with my siblings. I may not like them all the time, but one thing is for sure; I do live them. And although I would have adored spending more time with my friends considering the end of the school year and them living in another city, it actually wasn't horrible(despite things I say to my friends).
So, Happy Birthday(late) To Me :) <3>
So, Happy Birthday(late) To Me :) <3>
Affraid Of Her Friendship
Being the girl I am, I've always let my friends know that I'm the shoulder to cry on. But now that were all in high school, times have been guetting harder, wich means the troubles are harder to cope with; even for me.
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My zodiac sing is Cancer, wich is a person that has a highly emotional caracter. Wich is exacly me. I take many things to heart and sometimes to seriously. Thats why when my friend share with me the fact that she was suicidal pretty much tore me appart.
Through this time, it was hard on her , I could see because she had over a dozen cuts on her arm. But little did I know it, their was more to this.
She always told me it was because of the guys in our class bugging her(it was going on for a lil over a year). But then, she pointed down at 4 cuts and said " Thoes are because of you".
I was frozen. I had no clue how I could have done anything to her; she was my best friend! To this day, shes never explained. But, although I've dealed with many of my friends being suicidal, I've never quite been through anything like that. Thats why to this day, I be careful of what I listen to, not because I'm fed up with helping, but because I'm affraid of hurting myself in the prosses. But I'm growing, and I'm slowly recovering from the moments that have been tatooed on my soul.
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My zodiac sing is Cancer, wich is a person that has a highly emotional caracter. Wich is exacly me. I take many things to heart and sometimes to seriously. Thats why when my friend share with me the fact that she was suicidal pretty much tore me appart.
Through this time, it was hard on her , I could see because she had over a dozen cuts on her arm. But little did I know it, their was more to this.
She always told me it was because of the guys in our class bugging her(it was going on for a lil over a year). But then, she pointed down at 4 cuts and said " Thoes are because of you".
I was frozen. I had no clue how I could have done anything to her; she was my best friend! To this day, shes never explained. But, although I've dealed with many of my friends being suicidal, I've never quite been through anything like that. Thats why to this day, I be careful of what I listen to, not because I'm fed up with helping, but because I'm affraid of hurting myself in the prosses. But I'm growing, and I'm slowly recovering from the moments that have been tatooed on my soul.
One Last Goodbye
Okay, well everyone has a list of everything they wanna do before their life comes to its end. But were I stand, I dont think I really need one.
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Okay, well in my previous blogs, you've probably noticed I've been through some pretty bad things. But that just means I'm growing. And the truth is, I'm so not affraid of dying. Because I know that when I die, no matter how tragic or clicher it might be, I've lived my life the way I made it. And althought the chances are I might die without saying goodbye, I know in my heart that my dearest friends know that if I could of, I would have taken my very last breathes to say one last goodbye.
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Okay, well in my previous blogs, you've probably noticed I've been through some pretty bad things. But that just means I'm growing. And the truth is, I'm so not affraid of dying. Because I know that when I die, no matter how tragic or clicher it might be, I've lived my life the way I made it. And althought the chances are I might die without saying goodbye, I know in my heart that my dearest friends know that if I could of, I would have taken my very last breathes to say one last goodbye.
Unlucky Love
Okay well lets just get right down to it. When it comes to love, im not exacly the beholder of a great qantity of 4 leaf clovers. When it comes to finding a guy, I always seem to fall for the ones who are good looking, popular and jocks. Well, as i've recently figured out, popular jocks and very tall, not-quite-gorgeous geeks dont exacly match up. I mean sure, most of the time, opposites seem to attrack. But as I stated earlyer, I'm not exacly your typical leprechaun.
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About a month ago, I met this guy i seemed to like. It was awsome. We hung out in my back yard staring up at the stars and watching the night slowly come to its end. I;ve never felt so in place. It just felt so right. But little did I know it, a huge shocker was headed right at me..
As we lay together staring up at the stars at about 5 am or so, he held my hand. " Danielle, he said, I love you.You are the girl that I like more then ever. Your amazing and yeah, I just love you." Pretty amazing huh? Well thats what I thought too, until he spoke again. " I have to tell you something. I'm moving tomorow(today) in an hour. Baby, I'm so sorry . I'm leaving to North Carolina.."
As much I wanted it to be a stupid nightmare that was accuring because we had fallen asleep in each others arms on that cool spring grass, it wasent. Had the love of my life really told me so? The answer was indeed yes.
So as you can see, I'm no leprechaun , but my rainstorm followed by the reasurring rainbow will come in time. I mean, if we never go through these things we never learn. And trust me, I feel like I'm caught in summer school..
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About a month ago, I met this guy i seemed to like. It was awsome. We hung out in my back yard staring up at the stars and watching the night slowly come to its end. I;ve never felt so in place. It just felt so right. But little did I know it, a huge shocker was headed right at me..
As we lay together staring up at the stars at about 5 am or so, he held my hand. " Danielle, he said, I love you.You are the girl that I like more then ever. Your amazing and yeah, I just love you." Pretty amazing huh? Well thats what I thought too, until he spoke again. " I have to tell you something. I'm moving tomorow(today) in an hour. Baby, I'm so sorry . I'm leaving to North Carolina.."
As much I wanted it to be a stupid nightmare that was accuring because we had fallen asleep in each others arms on that cool spring grass, it wasent. Had the love of my life really told me so? The answer was indeed yes.
So as you can see, I'm no leprechaun , but my rainstorm followed by the reasurring rainbow will come in time. I mean, if we never go through these things we never learn. And trust me, I feel like I'm caught in summer school..
First Off..
Heyy :)
Well, this is my very first blogg. Its not really a custom for me to blog, but i figured why not.
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Okay so it was my birthday 2 days ago. It was pretty fun. Its a shame I had to babysit, but when you reach the age of 15 and your the oldest of 3, you kinda have to pick up the slack while your single mother is out working and providing for the family.
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Well, thats all for now.. Byes :)
Well, this is my very first blogg. Its not really a custom for me to blog, but i figured why not.
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Okay so it was my birthday 2 days ago. It was pretty fun. Its a shame I had to babysit, but when you reach the age of 15 and your the oldest of 3, you kinda have to pick up the slack while your single mother is out working and providing for the family.
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Well, thats all for now.. Byes :)
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