It's Okay, Life Goes On .

Well, as I've just noticed, I seem to have niglected to mention that Ryan and I are threw. Don't fret, it's not because we had a fight or because we have developped a hatrid, but because we simply didnt get a chance to see each other. Living a while away from each other, time was hard to find. It really is too bad because I did like him, as a matter of fact, I still do. But, I will not fret or dwell, because life goes on. I am still in my mid teenage years, therefor I will find some other fish in this sea we call Earth. But for now? I am a happy flirt ! :) haha. Well, it's just a lil over midnight, therefor I should be guetting to bed. Ciao! :) xox

It's Okay, Life Goes On .

Okay well in my previous post, I have forgotten to mention that my dream boy & I are threw. Not because we had a fight, or because we suddently devolloped a hatrid, but because we never really got a chance to hang out. Sad, really, because I did like him a hole lot. But you know what? It's alright, and I'm okay. :) Life goes on, even through hard times.  Anyways, its just a little over midnight. So, goodbye :)

First Opperation !

Okay, so usually, you get your tonsils and adenoids out when your around the age of 7, if needed. Well, thats not the case for me. I am now 15, and my tonsils have been bothering me for as long as I can remember. So, when the doctors finaly decided to sing me up for surgery, I was about twice the age that I should be to get them out.

Anyways, the point is that I had my first surgery a few days ago. Yeah, not the best outcome I might add. Since I got my tonsils out, my throat is very swollen and painfully sensitive. Its kinda hard to eat and swallow. Its a hassle, but it'll get better soon :)

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When I got to the hospital, all was well. I mean I was accually kinda excited to have my very first surgery. Well, that change in about 2 hours. My surgery was schedualed about 2-3 hours after the assinged time I was given to arrive at the hospital. It was so that the nurses had enough time to check vitals and such. Whoa, fun :D. not. So I was ( well i wouldnt call it dressed) dressed in this robe thing that you had to put on when you go for surgery. Luckly, I had a blanket to put over me so that I wasent so exposed( haha ) . I was doing pretty good in terms of nervs, but when the nurse came to take me in to the opperating room, I freeked. I mean, you get into that room and their just wires EVERYWHERE and one little table that you olay on while they slowly put you to sleep and then pieces of you out. I donht miss thoes pieces, I just miss the fact that they almost made my throat seem like their was NO pain. But I know that it will be okay soon, after it heals and I'm able to speek like a normal person :)

anyways, I'm out. Peace :)

Optomisme :)

Suicide. Its a big part of my life. Some may not know, but many people around me have tried to commit suicide, or have thought of it, a lot. Many people find its funny to joke about it. But its really not. Not to my face atleast.