Affraid Of Her Friendship

Being the girl I am, I've always let my friends know that I'm the shoulder to cry on. But now that were all in high school, times have been guetting harder, wich means the troubles are harder to cope with; even for me.
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My zodiac sing is Cancer, wich is a person that has a highly emotional caracter. Wich is exacly me. I take many things to heart and sometimes to seriously. Thats why when my friend share with me the fact that she was suicidal pretty much tore me appart.
Through this time, it was hard on her , I could see because she had over a dozen cuts on her arm. But little did I know it, their was more to this.

She always told me it was because of the guys in our class bugging her(it was going on for a lil over a year). But then, she pointed down at 4 cuts and said " Thoes are because of you".

I was frozen. I had no clue how I could have done anything to her; she was my best friend! To this day, shes never explained. But, although I've dealed with many of my friends being suicidal, I've never quite been through anything like that. Thats why to this day, I be careful of what I listen to, not because I'm fed up with helping, but because I'm affraid of hurting myself in the prosses. But I'm growing, and I'm slowly recovering from the moments that have been tatooed on my soul.